Friday, May 26, 2006

I'm so not looking forward to being in a lot of pain again.

Yet again my GP has totally ignored what the Pain Clinic doctor told me and said in her letter to him. Now I'm down to one pain tab twice a day. Yes I KNOW they are addictive, but most people who are in a lot of back pain don't get addicted to them. I don't want to go on a higher dose pain patch. If I take them how I was taking them, they have made me almost pain free and I won't have to go up to the higher dose pain patch. Now it looks like I'm going to have to go to the higher dose pain patch and have more medication in my body than I need or want. Oh I can take more if I need to BUT he cut the amount of tabs I have in half and told me when they run out, that's it, no more until the next month.

Shit I can't win for losing, ya know? Still I enjoyed two whole weeks of being almost pain free. I was so happy to be able to do more around the house. I even mopped both of the floors yesterday. I've been walking more like I should do because of another health problem. I can do more ironing before I have to sit down than I could do in the past. And the list goes on and on. I really HATE the fact that once again I'm going to be in a lot of pain

The way he talked to me about the meds I take, it was like I was a drug addict. I was so fucking offended. I think we are going to have a long talk session soon. I can't help being in pain. The pain doctor told me it will never go away, all she can do is make it more bearable. And there my GP is going out of his way to keep me being in pain and make it just like it was. Hahaha I was going to lower my dose of antidepressants because I was feeling so much better!

1 comment:

SwampHag said...

Ridiculous! Yet another stupid perception I see over and over again through my work, from those who have chronic back pain.


I hope you're able to enlighten your GP.