Sunday, February 26, 2006

Getting ready for Radiotherapy

How the hell does a wife get her mind around the fact that her hubby is starting Radiotherapy tomorrow. I can't hardly say "My husband has cancer" out loud. This is do damn stupid, I never panic, normally take things as the come regarding Johns health but this has thrown me for a loop. I KNOW it's 95% curable. I KNOW he's going be ok. I KNOW I'll cope with the side effects, luckily I have a message board where I can bitch and moan. I don't think I felt like this after he had a stroke, well until we got him to California from Illinois

So someone please tell me why the hell am I so scared for him? My mind is boggled.


Karen of Scottsdale said...

Cancer is one of those words that brings up all kinds of fears. I'm sure you remember back in the old days when cancer was almost a death sentence for most everyone. It's not that way anymore but we still remember how it used to be.

It is good to have a place to vent your feelings about things like this. I hope you have a friend nearby who can be with you when you feel low. When I get afraid I tell God how I feel and pray for his peace to fill my soul and replace the fear that I know is not from God. I don't know your faith background, Vanda, but I hope that you will find peace for your fears.

Vanda said...

You are so right Karen just saying the word gives most of us the chills.

I have a great online community, friends that I have known for years that I can talk to. LOL I've warned my females neighbours that I might invite myself over for coffee if he does get the moods swings and it gets to much.

I'm not a reglious person Karen, but I do believe that there is a higher power of some kind and what will be will be.